It can have you bound and chained to the matrix, but when you’re liberated, you’re like a phoenix rising from the ashes. It can have you bound and chained to rules. Life can have you bound and chained to your past. She loves herself 100% and encourages each one of us to have the willingness to do the same.“There’s nothing like liberation. She wants everyone listening to understand y ou might be putting seeds in the ground 5 years back and that tree might not sprout until 5 years later, it may be 10, 15, 25 yrs but when that tree does pop up, it’s going to be fruitful. She’s now keeping her clothes on and it’s because of the kids. She was given a camera and got some help building a website and thats when her business was born as her videos started becoming viral and a 6 second video that she never thought would change her life. When Ts Madison moved to Atlanta, s he was determined because she had nothing then. She got sick of silicone poisoning because she was so determined to keep her man. She’s always been prone to working and used to look down on sex workers but she learned a valuable lesson when she started losing her jobs and sex work was her only bread and butter. The job market has always been discriminatory against things they don’t understand. She thought of having more surgery but she looked at the mirror and told herself to change her focus.
Sometimes when we say that our self-esteem is there, it isn’t there. Transwomen make mistakes when you start looking at other transwomen and start going overboard. She feel like her genitalia has kept her grounded with God.
However, she decided that she did not need it. She had a point in her life where she thought of sexual reassignment surgery because there was no guidance. Ts Madison reminds us you have to be willing to get lost to find yourself. Her goal was to get away so she could uncover who she truly was. She’s not going to get any answer from her family, they already condemned her. She walked away from her family because she’s more important than anything else. She’s just knew she wanted to be somewhere in the middle. She loves women but she never wanted to be a woman. Some people still want to be stupid and be resistant to someone else’s identity because they don’t understand it. The first person that she saw as a slight representation of her was Ru Paul but when she first really knew what she was, was when she watched "The Crying Game." She just always wanted to look more like how she felt on the inside. She always felt that she’s two spirited, man and woman. It was a mental and spiritual struggle for a long time. For a long time she thought it was a demon because she was taught that it’s a demon and it’s evil. Ts Madison opens up about when she was young she did not know what she was dealing with because she was raised in the church.
She is only one of the voices and is not speaking for the entire community. She wants people to understand first that all she is going to say here is her own perspective and experience. She starts by thanking Derek for her mainstream growth.
In part 1 of this two part series, Derek is joined by Ts Madison to discuss her journey as a Trans. **PLEASE NOTE in this episode explicit language is used, please listen at your own risk**
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